Christmas and the new year coming up.....

Its been a while since I made a post. part of the reason is blogger WAS blocked at work and I spend most of my waking hours here. The other reasons fall into nice neat little packages....busy doing fun stuff, vacation in Florida, Christmas shopping and Thanksgiving cooking, too much time spent on Facebook etc.

Updates on the health.....the doctors seem to think they may have kicked Cancer in the ass. Visual inspections show no signs but it had planted itself pretty deep in some places so a pet/ct is needed to be sure. Funny thing about pet/ct scans....insurance companies (at least the new one my company changed to on DEC 1st....UHG!!) don't like to pay for them. My old insurance never gave me a hassle about anything.....ANYTHING I went through for this Cancer program. The new insurance has told my Doctor they don't feel its medically necessary....HUH??? How could that even be said out loud??? So its not necessary to know if they got all of the Cancer...or its not medically necessary to know if it has migrated to other organs....WHAT???? The doctors office, today, requested copies of the needle biopsy and some other stuff to send to the insurance company to convince them that HELLO SHE HAS CANCER! I just hope this isn't a sign of whats to come...and if they are this difficult all I can say is I hope the worst of my treatments are over so I don't have to worry about whats going to be covered and whats not.

Not a whole lot to report otherwise. Had a lovely vacation in Orlando Florida for my birthday....spent it with Mickey and friends!! Christmas cant come and leave fast enough and I am so ready to start the new year (decade!!!!) with a diet (HOLY COW HOW DID I GET SO FAT???!!!??) going to the gym again (HELLO CUTE BOYS!!!) working hard and playing harder. Will be taking the motorcycle course in the spring so that I will be able to ride by the time its warm.....did I mention I bought a Harley??? Oh...I bought a Harley Davidson...2003 Anniversary Edition Fatboy. Its so pretty!!!

Thats it...thats my update for now. I hope everyone has a wonderful Christmas and a safe and healthy new year.....thank you all for being there for me and loving me through something I never imagined in my life. I know its the love and prayers you offered up that guided me through the hardest parts. Not only am I stronger then I ever imagined but you all are more wonderful then I had ever realized. Thank you for everything and Cheers to the future!!!!

Well......

I do believe that I got good news today at the Doctor's office.......


I was....and still am...more confused now then when I walked in there. Its not because I didnt ask enough questions...or because he didnt give me enough information.


I think its Cancers fault.....

When I can figure everything out I will post it. What I can tell you....something that I am 100% sure about is that my body has responded in amazing ways to the treatment I have had. The Doctor today was very impressed......

More later!!!

Life has been good......

These days I have been feeling better and getting some of my energy back. I have continued my work load and started to pick some of my extra activities back up. Started back to the gym thyis week!! Boy did (do) my joints ache. Im sure its from lack of movement the past few months along with the chemo attack on my body. Of course every ache and pain represents some new form of cancer in my brain. Ive heard thats something common and will continue until some doctor gives me the offical "all clear"......I did have my Mamogram 2 weeks ago and the results came back in 2 days ago....its funny how the results most people get (meaning negative) can be such a relief. In my case the negative took on more meaning. They had also scanned my lymphnodes since it is part of the procedure. The lymphnodes came back negative and thats HUGE in my case. That can mean that my cancer has not spread any further then the lymphnodes in my groin (they killed them!!) and also means that the chance that it has attached itself to lungs or liver or ...or....or......is mighty slim. So needless to say I had a good cry and saved the letter!! I meet with the gyno-oncologist tomorrow. He is the guy who does the surgery...and also the guy who told me my case was far to advanced to operate. He made me laugh that day....he said he is a surgeon because he likes to cut things open and poke around....that is something that makes him quite happy so not being able to do it is a disappointment and that he was very disappointed he wouldnt be able to open me up. I just thought it was a pretty down to earth answer.....he wants to take another look now. He thinks maybe ...just maybe if my body reacted like they think it has that he can finally have a go at it......so we shall see! Fingers, toes and eyes are crossed!!

I hope everyone is having a great day and loving thier lives as much as I am. I am so greatful for everything!!

Jamie

Im here......

Im here....Im ok....I just needed a break from everything. I feel really good and have been getting my life back on track. Thank you for all the emails and phone calls. I will set up a post tomorrow with the doctors appts and schedule for the remaining year. Its pretty uneventful....thank god!!

Thanks for everything and I will talk to you all tomorrow...good night!!

Jamie

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Im gonna be brief....

Because I'm exhausted and achy and cranky and and and......

Well my two 3 days trips for internal radiation turned into Wed thru Sunday instead. What should have taken about an hour.....to place the tubes and get me prepped took almost 4. I have a VERY tilted uterus.....more tilted then any of the docs had ever seen and it was making it very hard to place the right side tube in the correct position. From what my Doc said they almost gave up all together but decided to step back for 15-20 min and brain storm. They figured out a way but knew they only had one shot and that they prob couldn't re-create it on Monday so they decided once they saw the scans and how perfectly the tubes were placed to just do both treatments back to back. After it was over my Doc said she had performed approx 1500 of these internal radiation treatments and only a handful had ever been back to back. It takes a certain case and a certain person and I fell into that bracket. Around day 3 of laying flat on my back trying to drink water sideways out of my mouth through a straw and being woken up every FREAKIN hour to check blood pressure and temp I was a mad woman. No seriously I was a crazy woman.....my back was killing me, I was having hot flashes, all I had eaten in 3 days was 1 banana and 1/2 a PP "n" J,,,they kept loading me up on IV fluids and I was convinced my catheter was leaking....it wasnt....everytime I made them check it....sorry!!! Then to have someone tell me I cant sit up, cant get up, cant roll over and only pick foood you feel comfortable eating laying down oh and here is a bucket if you feel ike you are gonna throw up......now tell me...think about it.....how would YOU throw up laying flat on your back??? Go ahead try it right now...Ill wait....now seriously go ahead.....ohhh you cant figure it out??? Yea me either!!!!..........grrrrrrrrr..............thank God for Bananas! Im bruised from head to toe with blood draws and IV lines....but gosh darn it Im alive and feeling MUCH better now that Im home. Body still hurts cause its just not sure what all this moving around is for...ha!

Im heading to bed.....just wanted to update ya'll. I will post Doctor comments and where we go from here tomorrow.....

Love ya.....thank you for all the prayers!!!!

Jump start.....

It seems that the 2 units of blood I got jump started my system enough that I have been livin' large this week!! I worked my usual work schedule with month end closing (UHG!!), stayed up later then 8pm...every night! Helped hang some tree stands, went to a wedding reception, had a late dinner with some friends, went to Mastoris for breakfast and walked the Cranberry Festival and still have a little energy left...not much tho!! Tonight I'm feeling a little tired but looking back on my week I'm pretty sure its normal! Just trying to finish up some laundry then I'm heading to bed.

Update on the internal radiation....I go in Wednesday Oct 7th for the first procedure and will be there until Friday night. Second treatment will be the following Monday and I will be home Wednesday night. I get to come home for the weekend and then its right back to the hospital. I think I like it better that way. I get both out of the way in a week. I figure if its really that bad I don't have so much time in between to dread going back.....

All of the Drs and Nurses at the Cancer Center have been so good to me. Ive been trying to think of something nice to do for them. I'm sure they get tons of food and probably flowers....I'm just going to have to keep looking around. Any suggestions??

Please keep in mind that starting Wednesday until at least the following Thursday I wont be posting. Im not going to take my laptop to the hospital so if you dont hear from me dont worry...please. I will post something as soon as Im able to sit at the computer. Thank you for being so concerned about me.....makes me smile!!

Love you guys!!