Im here......

Im here....Im ok....I just needed a break from everything. I feel really good and have been getting my life back on track. Thank you for all the emails and phone calls. I will set up a post tomorrow with the doctors appts and schedule for the remaining year. Its pretty uneventful....thank god!!

Thanks for everything and I will talk to you all tomorrow...good night!!

Jamie

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Im gonna be brief....

Because I'm exhausted and achy and cranky and and and......

Well my two 3 days trips for internal radiation turned into Wed thru Sunday instead. What should have taken about an hour.....to place the tubes and get me prepped took almost 4. I have a VERY tilted uterus.....more tilted then any of the docs had ever seen and it was making it very hard to place the right side tube in the correct position. From what my Doc said they almost gave up all together but decided to step back for 15-20 min and brain storm. They figured out a way but knew they only had one shot and that they prob couldn't re-create it on Monday so they decided once they saw the scans and how perfectly the tubes were placed to just do both treatments back to back. After it was over my Doc said she had performed approx 1500 of these internal radiation treatments and only a handful had ever been back to back. It takes a certain case and a certain person and I fell into that bracket. Around day 3 of laying flat on my back trying to drink water sideways out of my mouth through a straw and being woken up every FREAKIN hour to check blood pressure and temp I was a mad woman. No seriously I was a crazy woman.....my back was killing me, I was having hot flashes, all I had eaten in 3 days was 1 banana and 1/2 a PP "n" J,,,they kept loading me up on IV fluids and I was convinced my catheter was leaking....it wasnt....everytime I made them check it....sorry!!! Then to have someone tell me I cant sit up, cant get up, cant roll over and only pick foood you feel comfortable eating laying down oh and here is a bucket if you feel ike you are gonna throw up......now tell me...think about it.....how would YOU throw up laying flat on your back??? Go ahead try it right now...Ill wait....now seriously go ahead.....ohhh you cant figure it out??? Yea me either!!!!..........grrrrrrrrr..............thank God for Bananas! Im bruised from head to toe with blood draws and IV lines....but gosh darn it Im alive and feeling MUCH better now that Im home. Body still hurts cause its just not sure what all this moving around is for...ha!

Im heading to bed.....just wanted to update ya'll. I will post Doctor comments and where we go from here tomorrow.....

Love ya.....thank you for all the prayers!!!!

Jump start.....

It seems that the 2 units of blood I got jump started my system enough that I have been livin' large this week!! I worked my usual work schedule with month end closing (UHG!!), stayed up later then 8pm...every night! Helped hang some tree stands, went to a wedding reception, had a late dinner with some friends, went to Mastoris for breakfast and walked the Cranberry Festival and still have a little energy left...not much tho!! Tonight I'm feeling a little tired but looking back on my week I'm pretty sure its normal! Just trying to finish up some laundry then I'm heading to bed.

Update on the internal radiation....I go in Wednesday Oct 7th for the first procedure and will be there until Friday night. Second treatment will be the following Monday and I will be home Wednesday night. I get to come home for the weekend and then its right back to the hospital. I think I like it better that way. I get both out of the way in a week. I figure if its really that bad I don't have so much time in between to dread going back.....

All of the Drs and Nurses at the Cancer Center have been so good to me. Ive been trying to think of something nice to do for them. I'm sure they get tons of food and probably flowers....I'm just going to have to keep looking around. Any suggestions??

Please keep in mind that starting Wednesday until at least the following Thursday I wont be posting. Im not going to take my laptop to the hospital so if you dont hear from me dont worry...please. I will post something as soon as Im able to sit at the computer. Thank you for being so concerned about me.....makes me smile!!

Love you guys!!

Oh what a difference a day makes....

And 2 units of red blood!!!

Feeling muuuuuuuuuuuuch better. Will post more in the morning. This is the latest (11pm!!!) I have been up in 4 weeks and I gotta get to bed.....long day at work tomorrow!


Love ya!

Blood work.....

At 9am today my blood work was .......

White cell count 0.6 (yes that's ZERO POINT 6)
Red cell count 2
platelets 66

For those who know the numbers I don't need to explain....for those who don't...there will be no internal radiation tomorrow or the next day or the next day. It may not be until Oct 7th for the first one. Its all going to depend on my body....and its not cooperating.

All I can tell you is a flight of stairs feels like I ran a mile......and Im off to go to sleep. I will write more later...for now Im exhausted.

Love you!

I take it all back.......

Blood counts have really dropped (red and white are both hovering around 2-3 I believe) and I will be getting meds today and tomorrow in hopes of bringing them to a level that I can still have the internal radiation on Monday.....so far it looks like its gonna happen but only if my body agrees. I'm heading 45 min north of me at 8am for the first shots and then again tomorrow at 8am......I'm really pissed off at my body and at cancer and the fact that I have to go so far for the shots...and...and and......cancer can kiss my ass! (sorry Dad but I had to say it!)

I will be back and at work by 10am......I will be checking emails if you have questions I will try to respond asap.

Thanks...love you guys!