Saturday, July 25, 2009

Why we are here.............

If you are here its because you are one of the AMAZING people in my life....and to be honest I didn't realize until this happened how many friends I have. I'm sorta floored at the response I have received from all over the Untied States! Hi Washington! California! The Carolina's! Arizona! Jersey! New York! Florida!! Utah.....whew!!

The down side to having all of you emailing and calling is that I just cant keep up and I don't want to let anyone down or make them think I'm ignoring the requests for info. My tongue actually hurts from talking this week....who knew that could happen!! Ive been working too so alot of the calls go to voice mail or face book posts go unanswered so I was hoping to get you all to one central place for most of the information....technical stuff and what not. That way we have more time to talk about who wore what and who is dating who......much more important stuff for emails and phone calls!!

The basics of my health stand right now as Stage IIIb Cervical Cancer. Cancer is staged in 5 parts...0-4...0 being pre-cancer and 4 being almost untreatable. The b means there is whats called "pelvic wall involvement"...that really just says that they can not operate and remove it. That leaves me with the only option of treatment to be Chemo and Radiation. There are of course side effects to those but we will visit all of that when it happens.... The great part of my health situation is I have NOTHING else wrong....I actually have low blood pressure, low cholesterol, triglyceride's are great, blood counts are great, blood oxygen levels perfect. According to all my chemistry stuff I should be a skinny marathon runner...ha....anyone who knows me neither are in my future! That's a hurdle most people have to overcome tho...medications they are on or other health issues.....nada, zip, zero here!!

I have been to a handful of doctors..all of which I have been very very happy with. The first time the word Cancer entered my life was June 26th. It didn't really click in my head until about a week later when I saw an oncologist. I have now seen not only those Dr's but a Chemo Oncologist and a Radiation Oncologist.

My visit yesterday was with the Radiation Oncologist and I had been hoping to find out exactly when the treatments would such luck. My pet/ct scans have shown some weird mass in my pelvic region. He didn't say he thought it was more cancer but what he did say was that he wanted a biopsy on it before he would finish the treatment recommendation so here I am waiting again. There is a lot of waiting and I am told I have waited a whole lot less then most. I have been pretty pushy about getting appts etc....some people just wait for people to tell them what to do. I don't have the ability to do that. Don't say it Earl!!!

So for now I'm doing OK.....I have my moments but being at work helps and talk to all of you guys helps as well. You are all so amazing and the outpouring has been overwhelming. Please don't ever take my silence as something personal....I just might be having a bad day....or busy with Doctors....and on those days when I get home I'm usually all talked out and on information overload. I will post any updates as soon as I can......

Please know that I am so grateful to have you all in my corner....I feel like I could conquer the world with just half of the strength you give me!!!

The next update wont come until Monday with the biopsy dept calls to let me know when they can see me...when I know you will know.

I hope everyone has a wonderful day and know that my heart is smiling!!