Im touched by the kind words.....I really am.
Its been a tough week with this damn broken ankle. My freedom has been taken away and it was replaced with a dark cloud. Im lucky that I dont need surgery or Id really be going crazy. I just want this cast off and I want to be able to walk without crutches...to be able to carry things....to be able to go to the grocery store...to be able to go into any store for that matter. I missed a birthday of someone very important because my mind is so screwed up. I go to work. I go through the motions and I go home. Cancer never had this effect on me. I always knew in my heart that Id make it no matter what. I just cant wrap my head around this silly cast. I know it sounds crazy.....I cant even explain it without people looking at me like I have 7 heads. Its not that big of a deal...it should be easy for me to deal with. Its coming off in a few weeks...its not forever. Why cant I get that through my head.....why cant I stop whining and complaining about......WHY??????
I did end up in the ER Wed night....for 8 hours!!! I dont even feel like explaining it right now but I will...its a really funny story when i tell it now....at the time I was not a happy girl. I went because they suspected a blood clot in my leg.....8 hours later I didnt have one. end of story for now. Its a simple broken leg and its consumed me.....
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LOLOLOL! Jamie, if there is anything that I have EVER been able to completely relate to, it is THIS blog!!! I am so over this damned cast and all that goes with it, that I don't know what to do. It has over-taken my life! It is my left hand....I am the most left sided person that I have ever known! I have been whining for days, and I told Rod last night, it is coming off this weekend....somehow....I have been thru major surgeries and life threatening sickness, but, cannot get past 6 weeks in this cast! I am WITH YA, Sistah!
Its so true Cheryl.....it has consumed me. I feel childish...and like Im whining ALL the time. Im sure I will look back and laugh at some of the things that have happened but I cant bring myself to fine ANY humor in it right now.
me, either. I am ANGRY every day because of it. I try to write and it hurts my thumb. I am writing like a damned 4th grader or worse. I can't get into my clothes...trying to get into my bra is not cool at all...can't reach behind me to latch or unlatch so I am putting it on like a 12 year old and then can't bend my wrist to get my arm thru. Can't get back to my seat belt in the car with the door closed (of course I forget that every time I get in). I can't take a shower and feel clean, can't wash my hair without help or a mess. I can go on and on and on and to top it off, it is just plain uncomfortable! I feel like a baby too, because about 10 times a day, I get a big lump in my throat and want to cry. I hate it! I am trying not to complain to anyone but myself about it, cuz it is my own fault, but poor Rod got an earfull of it yesterday. I had a REALLY bad week at work, and I just blew about my cast. I don't think I can make it another 3 weeks........
oops, that was supposed to be a 2 not a 3! See? Can't even type....ugh!
I'm reading this late. Hoping you are near the end of this cast!
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