Friday, September 11, 2009

I wish....

I could sleep through the night
I didnt always feel like I had motion sickness
I had normal body functions
I didnt get hot flashes
I wasnt so tired all the time
I didnt feel like a "target" at work
I could drink coffee again
I wasnt so moody and mean to the people I love

I wish I had the life I had 5 months ago back...........

I know that I have to move forward.....but I feel like I have to mourn the life I used to have because I dont know that it will ever be the same again......maybe Im just having a bad day. It was bound to happen....I will be fine in the morning so please dont worry!

Love you bunches and thanks for the support....its what keeps me going....even on bad days!!! :)

4 comments: said...

You are entitled to having a bad day girlfriend. Your world has been turned upside down with all of this cancer and treatment stuff....nothing is as it was. I remember all of this with my dad. Don't worry when you have bad days's all part of this mess. I'm so sorry you have to endure any of this. And I can tell you right now that telling your friends not to worry about you is shall I say it...oh yeah...BULLSHIT! Thats just not gonna happen. We ARE going to worry...we love you so much and don't want anything happening to our beautiful girl. So hang in there sweetie...I know it's easier said than done but don't beat yourself up for having a bad day and just wanting to have some normalcy. I wish I was there to just give you a huge hug. My prayers and love are always with you! Hang tough girlie! I love you! said...

P.S. You've always been moody and mean...whats changed there???? JUST KIDDING....MMMMMWWWUUUAAHHHH!!!!

Cheryl said...

Steph couldn't have said it better. The fact that you have been so strong, I am AMAZED that you have been able to endure all of this without much complaint. You are amazing....and that is what we are here for. We want to be there with you for the good, the bad, and the ugly, Sweetie. My prayers today, for you, are that you can have a day of complete normalcy, to be able to regroup for the fight. Hang in there, Sweetie. We love and our hearts are fighting with you! Just remember, "I know you can fly!"

The Courteous Chihuahua said...

You will eventually get all that back, and with it will come a new appreciation for all that you have!!!